The Quiet After the Storm
If you've ever loved someone or thought you've loved someone and it's past tense now, you should be able to relate. Relationships tend to be a difficult yet sometimes rewarding part of life. It's usually difficult to trust a person with your sanity and emotional well-being but for the chance of happily ever after, we often do. I know I did. Everything seemed to be going well on the surface. She cooked, cleaned, and all of the other little things men look for in a serious relationship. But there was so much going on behind the scenes I had no knowledge of that when it all hit the fan...well you know. It wasn't exactly bliss. All of a sudden I had a rush of emotions I didn't recognize and thoughts I was scared of. For the things I wanted to do, I even judged myself. It's almost like someone pointed up and said, "No, that's downward now". I just had to re-grip reality for the first time ever. It was then that I realized that I was experiencing heartbreak and it was as horrific as advertised. The same way a person who recently was injured in an accident would have to re-learn basic functions, so did I. Waking up, looking at my phone, going grocery shopping, and all of those things I did before with her in mind I had to learn how to do again. The best thing I did was admit that this road would be long and difficult but also that I could make it. My stubbornness to let go of what I once believed was true was the same stubbornness telling me I couldn't do without her. But once I made that connection, I knew it was only a matter of time. This is what I call the quiet after the storm. After everything is said and done, when it's just you and your thoughts and the pending decision of what to do now...it's a very uncomfortable calm. When it's calm, you just take things one step at a time, don't miss details, and responsibly reflect from time to time. I strongly advise against Facebook/Twitter rants, violent retalitation, and listening to Adele. Hopefully whoever's the one for me is worth the learning lesson. I'm going to trust my perception of fate on that one.