Why Good Guys Finish Last
Nov15

Why Good Guys Finish Last

Why do good guys finish last if women are having such a hard time finding the few that are out there? You'd think that good men are the cream of the crop, but what do women think? Mary J. Blige, our beloved R&B and Burger King songstress, said it best, "Bad Boys ain't no good. Good Boys ain't no fun". Maybe that's why chivalry is getting ready to flat line any generation now. Apparently, a gentleman isn't quite as entertaining as a rapper yelling "I Need a Bad Bitch" is...and certainly not as popular. Since women seem to take pride in or aspire to be "bad bitches" these days, you have to wonder if that has anything to do with what men do to get your attention.... It's no secret that women have been calling the shots since Eve told Adam which fruit to eat. Men are re-actors. You think we buy cologne, stay in the gym, and clean up before you come over for self-gratification? No. We do what we feel will put us in position to get what we want. As long as we're "doing too much" by genuinely expressing interest but adored for playfully(or not so much) disrespecting you, we'll do what you want us to do to get your attention. Now, it's normal for both men and women to want a challenge because nothing worth having comes easy. I get that. But if you want to feel accomplished, feel so for attracting a man who realizes your worth, not for pulling dudes who pretend they're interested every now and then. Women have the power to make being a good guy cool, and if that becomes the case, way more good guys will show their faces. It's not complicated at all. The age old technique of "Positive Reinforcement" is still effective. Reward the things you want to happen more often instead of punishing them with your dismissal. There's nothing worse than being friend-zoned for being "too nice". I'm not blaming women for where good guys finish, I'm letting you know that you have more control than you give yourself credit for. Good morning texts, random gifts, and surprise romantic outings doesn't mean a man is doing too much; but it could mean you're probably not used to enough. I'll be honest, good guys are outnumbered, but if we're ever going to get out of last place, stop giving the other guys a head start. -DerrickJaxn Share this:TweetShare on...

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A Cheating Man’s Heart…
Nov03

A Cheating Man’s Heart…

This was the blog that inspired the novel, A Cheating Man's Heart.   Based on a true story... I love my woman, no doubt. If she needed somebody in her corner, I'd be there rain, sleet, hail, or snow. I'd do anything for her. I'd lay down my life if it meant saving hers, give my last to see to her needs being met, fight to the death in her honor if I had to. This undoubtedly is the woman I want to spend my life with. But there's just this one thing.. I cheated. And I did it again. After the first time it was like...I don't know it was like a drug. I experienced the high then immediately the low mixed with guilt.  But ultimately I craved it again, and more so the next time. I can't blame the dealers, they used me like I use them, but stopping my abuse didn't reverse the damage. I don't even feel in control any more. I'm disgusted with the straight face I can put on when she looks me in the eye and tells me she loves me, yet I reciprocate the message because my heart is above my waist out of any outsider's reach. While emotionally faithful as I may be, physically I no longer am and to her, there may be no separation. If she finds out she may forgive me, she may not, but she'll never be the same. A broken trust will deal a fatal blow to her peace of mind,  so I'm willing to die with this guilt no matter how heavy the burden gets. They say if you really love someone you'll just tell them the truth. Like it's that simple. But the truth is looking to take away the best thing that ever happened to me on the account of my aptitude to make mistakes.... but its ability to destroy is only in its potential to be known. Like I set a train in motion that can't be stopped without the power to turn back time...and my options are to either let it collide with her head on, or to derail it off course to temporarily save both of our lives. Maybe it's a selfish ambition, but in the same way I hold her heart, she holds mine. To lose her is to lose both and I don't know how to brace myself for that or if I even want to. So many things running across my mind right now that I just don't understand and the world has no empathy for my sentiments. They just dehumanize me. People can't fathom a...

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